Sunday, January 6, 2008
Worked from 1.30pm to 10pm in GV. Although there wasn't much people, there so many problems -.- People keep buying AVP2 which a NC16 show n keep bring underage ppl to watch then keep refund -.-ll then manager scolded me when i was trying my best to tell her about the customer's tickets detail. And the first place, i dunno why i just cant have the mood to really work for the day.
Really didn't feel like talking to anyone. Its so bad until when some customer just raise their voice cause they said their NIRC so fast tat i cant catch it and i got to keep asking them to repeat n repeat.
End of work, i went check my handphone , i was glad cos at first i didn't really expecting any people to sms me but yr did tried asked me out but i got work. Too bad ;p next time ba ;/
Reach home le, got a brand new monitor infront of me and father was trying to explaining everything to me but i cant be bother to listen. Then at last it was a time i was really happy, chatting in msn ^^ although not many people are really free to chat, but at least they tried to continue on. The best was when i was talking to ji dan, it was so fun and HIGH ;D its was such a gd feeling. I just missed this feeling =) Then start chatting CO stuff about merv n js, for ryan talked some router, yr was project, karthis was anime n drama, apple n linda project, and jj was maple. After tat went watch anime. Came back talked to linda... Always just keep orh me -_- jj oso talked to me about maple. Worst of all, was justin 1st reply was "?" then later was "shut up la" then "nothing important ..." usually in the past i ok with it. but today i not, it just hurt me alot ... i was like trying to hope to talk to him so that we could get better but it seem it failed ;/
I dunno y i feeling like this now. All i know i started to feel very lonely... and i bet this blog no one really care to relink it or even know about it. My only group of frens are like not even meeting up, even meet up there really nothing much. Is like everyone just meet the for the sake? Maybe i think too much ba. But seriously i know i was so busy tat i couldnt afford to organise n go out with them. I feel that things are not like in the past anymore, everything changed even i changed.
In the past i can just can dun care wat thing happening n just live my happy life ~ now is diff, the way i see things now is totally diff. I been wondering in the past am i being a gd fren? Or did i changed so much tat they dunno me anymore? At first the starting of 2007 was so fun, we did things together , like staying justin house for almost 1 week, going ice-skate, chalet, celebrating bday and many more but ever since septemeber onwards i started working at GV, things starting to change. And people told me something tat i didnt even realize about it. Soon, i start seeing things differently.
Everything different... classmates in poly. LOL all of suddenly in one day, i realize do i really close to anyone? but in the end i found out there one only. When i noticed this, i was so sad but in the end i still managed to get over it. However, when i was with them in class or outside. I can feel i very distance away from them. Whenever see the guys start playing around, its such a nice feeling. I always think tat they are really closed to each other. but this rarely happened to me anymore cause everyone now in school are just seriously about projects n study. And i even set a goal to try to understand them better like trying to talk to them more in msn or real life, it seem it does not really works. Msn i tried to talk to some of them before, it was really tiring for me to keep trying to keep the conversation going. i now most of them are busy so its ok i wun really expecting much too. But sometime i just really wan someone can just talk to me when they really wan to talk me. i know i do tat in the past, just keep answering one word answer when i was busy. So really cant blame them ba. actually the best is that sometime i can just online the whole day, there can not even no person start conv with me or even have is just few. Actually in the past, i didnt realize about this because i always the one who start conv.
There many stuff i wan to say but i tired. Typing this was really good but pain, it helped me to feel much better however there some part my tears just couldnt stop coming out of eyes but i still feel abit better now.
the memories will turn WILD.
1/06/2008 02:44:00 AM
