When Inerasable Memories Turn Wild ...

Hacks, hacks & haaacks!

2010-06-24T19:54:00.002+08:00

Spending the last few days reading on an empowering blog from Scott H Young! Learnt many things from him such as productivity hacks, building and refining your habits and meaningful tips. All these information which I had gained from the blog was a mind-blower! Gotta try a lot of new methods and techniques to improve my life even more! Holistic learning! Productivity hacks! Study hacks! GTD! Many things but we got to focus on thing at a time right (:? Yes.

Alright... got to settle down with a theme which I shall personal twist it in my own way like a 3-months plan like how in the past which Stalin implemented 3 and 5 years plan to boost the Russia into a powerful nation comparable to America.

Furthermore, I have been building up a new habit which is reading the Bible daily. What Pastor John had said on the past few weeks sermons, our Father speak through you when you mediating the word. From this brand new habit, I've gained many new insight of life works and simple tips how to enhance my life!

Also, I have been working out for a month and half. The outcome of working out and eating chicken breast together with lettuces/kimchi shows a obvious outcome that I have slim down a lot and the body is forming very sexy form of muscles! Last of all, today workout I have realised there a huge unequal strength whenever I am doing exercises like pull ups and push ups. Okay! Reminder to myself: From now and the next 30days, focusing on working out in the right forms and focus focus focus using same strength on both arms AND use all the muscle which includes the core, chest and backs. Remember! One for all, all for one. Simple? Hahahaa

Okay another reminder. Do a review including pictures for workout schedule!

Last few hours of big TWO

2010-06-07T21:54:00.002+08:00

Time really really... passes very fast! The last time that I've blogged was end of 2009 which was half a year ago! Oh well, oh well let's not dwell how does time passes so fast anymore (:

From here onwards, I will just key whatever flow into my mind. Forgive for my messy and horrible writing! Hhahahaha :D

Okay! Let have blog some of my personal reflection before i hit the big Tweeenty ONE . Lived for 20 years in such protected environment was indeed a great blessing! Thank you LORD <:! Meeh, got to thank my dear dad and sister too who supported me through out all these years. Man! I'm writing a thank you speech for some prize-award ceremony LOL!!!

Poly years! The every moments and minutes that I had spent in the school was indeed memorable and AWESOME! Many loves and hates happened in the three years there. Like how I fell in love with some girl and everything was so complicated. Heartbroken and soulless, that how I felt during the period. Now I think back about it, I feel seriously childish and dumb HAHAHA. Ho who cares! It part and parcel of life isn't it <: ?

Ho this did not just happen once. I got into a crush on towards my end of year 2. Homygad! I'm like revealing how my secrets out now D:! I always thought .x was always interested in .y. Actually one of them did like so called "confess" to other party... you know LOL! Interesting isn't it <:? After the leveled up from the previous triangle relationship, I had become a "pro", so I went for the passive route. However, I still felt that heaven was playing a joke on me, IT IS ANOTHER TRIANGLE! Hahaha actually the problem is that I think so much until I twist the whole situation in my own view. In fact, it wasn't really what I though... somehow the situation change and I had the advantage but I still remained passive. Arh!? Why am I typing all these stuffss!!!! LOL

Furthermore, at the end of 2007, I hit deep into "emo" state. Thinking how life was so unfair. You know like it was always ME who initiated the conversation and organised events for everyone and everyone just take me for granted. That was how I felt during that time. Due to this incident, I gave up organising events and outings up to this day. Sometime, I wonder why is there hardly anybody want to start a conversation with me in MSN. Or is it everyone like me? Hoping that somebody will MSN you and feel the joy of being noticed by people? I also wonder why some people who did not even try to get any attention from people and people just automatically find them. For me, I must be always the one who start the conversation. Seriously, this whole thing is mystery to me.

LOL I feel so retard typing all these stuffs randomly HAHAH!! Who cares :D

Last days of 2009 (:

2009-12-30T01:38:00.002+08:00

Hi peeps! It has been a long time since I had last updated this blog!

It was quite a hectic and busy for a year end. Projects and projects just keep piling up and worst of all is me who been slacking procrastinating for so many times.
Bad me. Bad Boy. (n)

Spent the last few days doing Flash. Flash is superb AWESOME and FUN but lot of time and effort is needed~! After spending so much time on flash, I'm only about 1/5 done... Gosh! I really regretted doing flash at the very last minute!!! And now I have not done any school related stuff!!

Recently been feeling very guilty about my current LAW assignment. My super AWESOME friend is like tanking the whole part 2 all by herself :/ Anyway I want to leave a message to her (: A big THANKS and SORRY small eyed girl!!!

Anyway 2009 ending soon. Here comes 2010 the BIG 10 :D! Before we get to the mood of celebration, I need prioritize my things first!

1. Perl Practical
2. Law
3. FLASH
4. FYP Technical Report
5. Mainframe

This 5 important things... Gosh it will be one of the hardest trial I ever face I think >.> All within a month! HAHAHAHA!!!
Sam! You can do it!

IMMMA BACK!!!!

2009-10-20T21:33:00.002+08:00

BACK FROM KOREA! BACK FROM CAMBODIA!!!~

I had so much fun during this holiday!!!
I SHALL OFFICIALLY DECLARE THAT SAM (HEART) KOREA!!! Korea is wonderful and beautiful country filled with so many amazing scenery. The weather at Korea totally suit me!!! 24/7 AIR-CON AWESOME-NESS WOOT!!! So I had decided that I'm going to learn korea language and go backpacking in korea!!! KOREA HERE I COME!!!!!

Im too lazy to blog more about korea. I shall go straight to Kpop :D!

Here is the new SS501's song :D Just release a day ago? I was not really hook to their previous song... However this song is pretty good and promising and I believe it will conquer kpop charts as No.1 soon!

Last and not least!!! MY SNSD NEW CF :D!!! OMG THIS IS AWESOME CAN!!!!

UBER SEXY! UBER HOT! UBER CHIO! UBER CUTE!! <3 SNSD!!! OMG OOMG OMG!! IM SPEECHLESS!!!

the harsh reality

2009-08-15T21:36:00.006+08:00

K.Will - 눈물이 뚝뚝 (Dropping the Tears)

Such a sad and beautiful song. Resemble very close to my dreams.
Been listening to this for almost 1month already and often repeating it during late nights. I still love this song (:

2009-07-30T09:45:00.000+08:00

Get to know yourself better (:
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

loves <3

2009-06-14T20:55:00.001+08:00

Nice sad MV. Kim So Eun so pretty <3

the night that made my day

2009-06-10T20:13:00.013+08:00

8th June night was really fun (:
We rented a car, Toyota Axio at Turf City for the night.

Tada Axio! Bey love this car <3>
We fetch everyone and went to Cathay to catch Blood: The Last Vampire at 11.50pm. I will the rate the show 6/10. Before the movie, Justin and me were playing with car in the car park. Cathay car park is like a super uber tight crank course =.= Bey keep screaming when we tried to squeeze through the exit because the car was really near the wall and any small mistake, we will left scratches on the car ;D.

After the movie, we decided to go Gelyang for our supper or 'dinner'. This time is Justin driving us ^^

Our awesome new driver (:

Just went we about to get out from Suntec City and go to the experssway. We kena spotcheck by police road block =.= Somemore we were told to come out the car for some question and take down particulars. While waiting, we said we should take a picture with the polices to post on our blogs LOL!! Bey, JJ and me were sitting down on the kerb, then Justin said we are like people who got kena caught the police LOL! After taking down all our particulars, one of the police chit chat with us, asking us where we going and the movie we just watch nice anot ... What a nice guy (: Other officer even wish me happy birthday. We concluded why we tio spotcheck was because Justin have baby face looks and Bey was suspect as a drug addicted >;]

Finally, we reached our destionation without lost but we got stucked in jam at 2am in the morning =,=!!! All thanks to some roadwork!

Gelang really have limited parking slot... We drove 2 big rounds around just to find a nice ulu place to park the car. On the way to the dim sum shop, there a china woman trying sell sex to us LOL!! Anway she quite poor thing;x We came back still see her standing there, this conclude she have no business for the last 1 hour.

At the dim sum shop, we ordered quite number of food and it was really delicious!!!

Siew Mai, Ha Gao,Char Siew Bao and Chang Fen
Xiao Long Bao and .... Dunno wat
Erm this my Sugar Cane drink in a container ... LOL!!!

After a wonderful meal, we went back home. I was sleeping in the car while on the way home. Reached home at 4am. Quckly bathe and went to sleep to get enough energy for later swimming :D

tears of sadness and happiness

2009-06-08T19:04:00.003+08:00

Thanks everyone who remember my birthday and wished me.

It was very unpleasant birthday because I spent almost half of the day alone doing stuff. Almost cried during the bus trip home. Halfway in the trip, Bey called me and ask wether want to go out. I was so happy.
I really want thanks God for the turnover. Thanks God. Thank Bey.

My greatest fear and weakness is lonely and alone. That is why I hate staying at home because I always feel that I'm only one at home.
Every time I will find excuses and lies to do run away from people and end up doing things by myself. I really hate to be alone and leftout. I have a very bad habit which I will always trying finds way to be alone but in my heart I really do not wish for that. I always hope someone will accompany or follow me but not everyone knows that. I am always grateful and touched for the people who noticed it and accompany me. Small little action can my day happier (:

Will be punished

2009-05-31T13:19:00.002+08:00

Actually I had a post an entry 5am in the morning but I had decided to hide it (:

Recently, I had not been doing any productive stuff. Lost of motivation and drive to do things like exercising and study. Meeh I need get my fat butt moving already, or else I gona to be fat and flabby guy >;O

Anyway here a nice ballad song from Solbi (:

2009-05-17T20:47:00.005+08:00

Found this while surfing the net.

Korean teacher using the famous idol korean bands like Wonder Girls, Big Bang and SNSD to teach the students ;o

Below are the some of the questions (:
Sorry for the small image [click to enlarge it] ;o

where the slient night?

2009-03-30T21:53:00.003+08:00

SINGAPORE: A fire broke out at a manufacturing plant in Joo Koon Crescent on Friday.

The plant, owned by mainboard—listed Ellipsiz, caught fire at 12.26pm.

The Singapore Civil Defence Force (SCDF) sent two fire engines, two fire bikes, one Red Rhino and an ambulance to the scene.

A 53—year—old finance manager suffered smoke inhalation and was conveyed to the Singapore General Hospital.

SCDF officers put out the fire, which occurred in the plant’s clean room, in 15 minutes.
The cause of the fire is under investigation

That my father company -_-!!! How nice can it be when the company is already suffering from the economy downturn and suddenly there a fire!? Lucky my dad was away for his long no-pay leave and was not caught in the fire (:

Soon there will be chaos in my house soon due shortage of money (:
Oh well~ why should I care about for them
Idiotics

I want disappear into thin air now.
I hate working.
I hate stay at home.
I hate MSN.
I hate handphones.
Everything single thing now is just pissing me off.

RAMEN

2009-03-22T21:32:00.003+08:00

Yesterday night, I met up with JJ, Justin, Justin's Sister and Justin's sister's friend to eat ramen!!!!! It was at Clarke Quey Central. The restaurant was very well decorated like those Japanese store in Japan :D The moment I entered into the restaurant, the fragrant soup smell was like killer to my stomach ;/

I ordered Kara-Miso Ramen with Salmon *something* LARGE set <3.

LARGE kara-miso ramen with Salmon Don ;O!!

Awwww.... I am drooling now ;O The cooked salmon with salmon egg was blessing. The large ramen was super good tooo but there too much noodle ;/ Justin ordered Pig cheecks Ramen (haha I dunno the jap name for it ;p) OMG it super good!!! JJ said the meat was so soft like fish so we called fish-pork meat 鱼诸肉 LOL!!! Wasted!! I forgot take picture of the flavored boil egg which was super good too! The egg is like almost going to be fully cooked but the inside is still half boiled like that!!! I bet the chief have a super amazing skill to cook that type of egg! In total I spend $27.50 with GST on my LARE set ( the set w/o GST is 20.50++, if want regular +$1 large will be +$3). I think it definitely worth the money and I confirm will wan go back there again!!!

nature x nature

2009-03-22T20:43:00.010+08:00

Yesterday went 'trekking' on Bukit Timah Hill with Karthis. Both of us took the long way route to the submit and climb flight of stairs until my thigh almost got a cramp.

Mmmm time for pictures which I took along the way(:

Wooo! We found a lizard ;D!!

The 'Holy Grail Fountain'
The picture suppose to show a small pond or fountain and the bright sun shinning down on it but due to lousy photograhpy skill, it was cut off ._.

Stairway to the Summit

This staircase is the beginning of the Trial of Torture (: LOL!!

Same as the previous pictures but it is zoom in into the dark areas
can you count the number of steps in that flight of stairs???

Let say hi to Karthis and congrats him for complete 1/3 of the Trial ;]!

2/3 of the trial ...

A few more steeps to finish the triaal....
Taaadaaa we completed the most torturing stairs in Bukit Timah Hill (:

We took a quick water break and quickly brisk walk back down because the rain is coming. It was quite enjoyable experience and I get to smell the nature ;3 Compared in the past, I think I my stamina had improved a lot more better. The last time I climbed the stairs with Weiming, it was killing me. This time I managed to complete it with no problem ;D! I am proud of Karthis too becuase he was brave enough to follow me ;D Muahaaa

without a heart

2009-03-20T00:10:00.003+08:00

Bad month to start with...
Ever since ITP started, I don't feel like being myself anymore.
I hate waking early in the morning because first thing i will see is my family.
Life at work can be pleasant and unpleasant too.
I already lost the motivation to cheer myself up.

B O R N I N G life

Anyway here is a MV which I like it a lot (: Touching lyrics and nice song.
Yea it related to vampire AGAIN. Why everyone is relating vampire with romance huh!?

'Why don't I just laugh, just laugh, just laugh'

Other MV which JS had showed me during work. It is a very touching MV... almost cried in the end but I hold my tears ;p This singer lost both her parent at age of 12... Sad right? I really admire her that she able to live her life to the fullest and make it to top 10 of the competition.

One day... one day, I will get my chance to tell her that I have finally mature too

Gonna end this screwed up life!
Left last 3-4 weeks of ITP, I need work extra hard for my work, stay cheerful and even more hyper AGAIN :D

Exam over and it K- World time!!

2009-02-24T23:44:00.011+08:00

After watching and listening Nobody - Wonder Girls from youtube. It sparked off my craze for Korea Music!! I started watching their Wonder Girls Season 1 and 3, it was so interesting!! It showed how these young girls ( most of them are only 15 years old Middle School Year 2 Only!!) worked and practice hard to be a star. I also get to see how their lifestyle in korea too. Awesome!! One amazing things about girl dancer, they love to use high heels to dance!!! Usually I hear girls complaining wearing high heels is so pain, so if what they wear high heels to dance? Does it hurt alot?? Admire those girls dancer perseverance !!

I also watch MKMF 2008 which was a korean music award and their performances were very good!! Wonder Girls do their Nobody in Tango, Big Bang and Lee Hyori do a great scandal performance, and lastly Rain performance which show case his amazing dancing skill !!! Damn nice sia >.> Somemore today watched SBS Daego 2008 which is year end concert in korea, many interesting performances like Wonder Girl and Big Bang sang each other songs (: OK no more talking ITS Video TIME!!

Nobody - Wonder Girls

This a very funny MV and the girls dance were very good. I am addicted to this song now >;D

Nobody Tango Ver Practice!!!

MDMF Wonder Girls Tango Ver.

Cause of this video, I started watching MKMF :)

In the MKMF, Wonder Girls had won 3 awards!!! Song of the year 2008 - Nobody, Best Girl Group(Nobody) and Best MV (Nobody). Ok I shall stop here for today (: Tml I will post more about my K- Fantasy!

my freedom

2009-02-15T23:08:00.003+08:00

I don't understand anything about WEBS.
WEBS is like alien to me.
I don't remember that Mr Tan taught all these in class.
I don't have the tutorial answer!!
Left one day to study WEBS
I want play game!!!
I wan read manga!!!

STUPID EXAMS!!!

platters ;O!

2009-01-31T21:39:00.005+08:00

Yesterday, I had a really YUMMY dinner together with merv, js, cy and yr!! We ordered 2 man-sized platters and pork chop which has a very unique name called piggy grilly?

Our Seafood Platter for 2!

Our Meat and Seafood Platters and Pork Chop!!

The sinful hot chocolate drink!!!

Is Merv trying to drink the soup or he got shocked by the size of the platter?? LOL

Throughout the whole dinner, we were laughing away non-stop :D I had really enjoyed this dinner together with them!!! After the dinner, we went back to buy muffins. Awww we were too late! The double chocolate muffin was sold out :( After buying some muffins, we went back home.

Just nice when I reached home, Justin called me whether want to go out with Bey and JJ since Bey got car. The moment I reached home, I quickly typed out WSNA stuff and send to my group mates before leaving the house. I was very lucky to catch the last train to JE and Paris Ris!

We went to Marina Square where Bey wanted to River Ang Bao. At Marina Square car park something very funny happened. When I just came out from the car, there a lady together with some guy was pointing her car key at me. Justin at first though, she was someone I know, but actually she was trying to find her car... Then she was walking halfway towards us, her heels got stuck on a small drain. Justin and me saw what happened and wanted to laugh but we tahan until we far away from her then laugh like crazy. Lastly, this time we were walking to the exit of the car park, she was driving her car towards the exit too. But... she drove too fast and overshot the exit! LOL!! We were laughing like crazy ;x

Justin said "she like a bobo queen leh."
I replied " I think she see me le then got stunned by my sexy legs." LOL

Unfortunately, River Ang Bao was closed :( So we went to catch a movie instead. We watched 'The Wedding Game'. The movie was quite good and there was some really funny parts like when all toys head got chopped off and the wrestling between both of them. After the movie, Bey send us back home and I was already half dead. The moment I reached home, I quickly went to bath and sleep till 1pm.

Now the complaining part!!
Just now blogging halfway, I realised that I did not eat my muffins yet. I went to kitchen to look for it and to my horror it DISAPPEAR!!! AWWWW!!! I asked my dad where they keep, he told me that my step mother ate it already!! OMG MY MUFFINS LEH!! >;[ I DIDN'T EVEN TRY IT YET AND ITS GONE ALREADY!! MUFFINS!!

the reality

2009-01-28T19:07:00.004+08:00

This year CNY was really interesting and had a big impact on me too.
Within these two days , I had learn many things and information that I was not told for my past 19 years. After living so long in this family, I always thinks that it is fine to stay together with them until I get marry. But things are not as simple as I think.

Soon... just a matter of time, I will need leave this house soon (:
So SAM!!! Live to my own life to the fullest like never before :D! Aja Aja Fighting!

After hearing one of few mother last words
She always been thinking of us till the last moments...

reflections

2009-01-24T21:57:00.002+08:00

What a screwed up night!
I lost my anger once again
I feel like I am a super big fat liar.
I keep telling people that I not so easily get angry.
But the actual fact, I tend to lose my cool easily when I am at home.
I always know that my father is being nice to help to do stuff but I always ended up scolding him for no reasons.
I always remind myself not to get angry with my dad but i always ended up failing...
I really don't like the feeling of being angry with dad or any other people.
I always can feel that my dad is very sad after I scolded him.
If I was him, I will be very sad that my own son is behaving like this too.
And knowing that my dad now is going through a hard time, I should support him instead of giving him more problems.

Reflecting what have happened just now.
I think I think I am just spoiled brat who depend too much on my family.
I am like a hypocrite who keep saying bad things about my family.
But after thinking through, the faults lie under me.
For example, I depend my family to keep my stuff for me so I anyhow throw stuff around the house.
When I can't find my things, I will tend to push the blame on my family first.
I always complain that my dinner sucks. But I didn't make any effort to cook my own stuff.
Actually, I am quite fortunate to have a good older sister who always helping me and a patience father.

After saying so much stuff, I really don't like the current me now. I always said I want to change for the better. I want this. I want that. I will do this and that. But I always ended up the same. I have not improve at all, I only gone worst. SO WHEN AM I GOING CHANGE?
What a dumb and stupid question to myself.

chaotic

2009-01-20T21:47:00.004+08:00

Projects, Projects AND PROJECTS!!
This one of most busy semester I ever had in Poly and soon there will be quiz and tests.
Hope I can pull it through for the last one month...

Anyway just realized that today is my Mum birthday ._.
I didn't visit her for 2 years already so this time I must find time to visit her this year (:
Happy Birthday!

Goodbye 2008 >;]

2009-01-04T15:07:00.008+08:00

HAPPY BELATED NEW YEAR AND BELATED MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Welcome to brand new year of 2009 :D!!

Its been a long time since I blog. So I going to summarise the whole month DEC right now!!

1st week of Dec
Awww... Its MST week!! I totally screwed up my DSM and OPS papers!! One of the question "What is OPS?" which supposed to be give away and I don't know how to answer it -_- Never mind its already over~

Saturday early morning went to BBDC for my two Final Theory lesson, the driving instructor did a wonderful job making the lesson interesting.
During the night, watched Bolt with JJ, Justin, Karthis and Bey >;]

A dog who having been living in a world of lies that he was a Super-dog, until he saw the real world where he lost all his 'super powers'. It was very funny seeing how Bolt do his superpowers like super eye ray and Super bark LOL. It nice to see how the three of them, cat, hamster and Bolt get together and travel around in US. Friends! >;]

Sunday spent most of time FLY-ing, finally gotten my Haste and Stonehand which made leveling a piece of cake ;X Later at the night met up with JJ and Justin at Taman Jurong to have our Din-sup Mac! After a fattening McSpicy meal, we went over to Justin house to stayover for a night!! We played Gutair Hero: World Tour~ I spent most of time playing the drums which I always messed up my rythems >;p. Early in the morning, we played FlyFF but I gave up training halfway because it freaking crowded!! So I went to sleep first while JJ and Justin went to play L4D (Left 4 Dead)...

2rd week of Dec

First week of holiday!!!
Wasted half of the week chionging Flyff ...

I dual client :D!! So easy to level with personal FS all to myself!

Hardcore leveling starting from Last week Sun to Wed and finally hit level 60 Billposter!! And gotten 13m penya on Thursday!!

Awww JJ went to Thailand with his family on Thursday. I wanted to go too but I have budget problem ;/ As for FlyFF, it was rather boring so i stopped playing it already.

End up watching 倚天屠龙记 2003 / The Heavenly Sword and Dragon Sabre 2003!! Hahaa one of my most favoruite show during one my Seconday years :D

I am a Zhou Zhi Ruo fan >;O!! Boo to Zhao Min fans!!!

This week Saturday, we did not meet up for any movies so it was 倚天屠龙记 frenzy ;3! And watched a bit of Miss World at Saturday night. *Drool* Those girls are simply hot and sexy >.<
Tada!! It is Miss Russia!! She is simply gorgeous!!! But quite disappointed with with her speech why she should be Miss World... Maybe there communication breakdown that why she gave such a simple answer ;O

3rd week

Finally completed my 倚天屠龙记 on this week, it took me quite long to watch finish this series because I don't like see Zhi Ruo become evil and do harmful things to people ;/

Monday afternoon, met Chee Yang and Yong Rong at CCK Lot 1 and had lunch at Pizza Hut :D I think this was my 2nd or 3rd time eating at Pizza Hut in my whole entire life? Quite yummy but just that the Chicken Cream Soup was too salty which tasted excatly like Magiee Meee Chicken Flavour -_- After the lunch, I went home to rest to get ready for the night >;D

At night, met Chee Yang at Yee Tee at 11.15pm and walked to Yong Rong's HDB to get ready for suprise :D!

Here the Hello Kitty Cake!!

Cy and me camped at the staircase until 11.57pm then we started to light the candle. When it was about 12am... Cy keep pointing at the cake so I went to see the cake... OMG! one of the candle had fall and landed on other candle!! The candle keep melting until half of wax flowed out to the Hello Kitty -_- What a diaster!!! We try to suprise Yr but she was not shocked at all >.>. By the time she cut the cake, we can see the Hello Kitty is covered with lot of wax all and the Kitty face is like T.T... After removing all the wax, the Kitty is totally disfigured already LOL!! Too bad I did not take a picture of it ;/ End of night, I took bus to CCK and from there had a one hour and half walked back to home (:

To be continue ....

2008-11-28T23:02:00.004+08:00

Three cheers to me for losing all my important stuffs!
I lost my Birth Cert, 'O' level result cert, CCA Cert, Secondary School Report Book and still got any more ma!?

Q: How was it lost!?
A: NO IDEA AT ALL! IT JUST DISAPPEAR AT MY OWN HOUSE!!!

*FYI: This not the first time something just disappear at my house. *

I will try not blame my family on this anymore.
I will not lose my anger on them anymore.
I will not show attitude to them anymore.

And...
while searching for the documents, I saw a letter which contained my Kayaking Cert which was placed together with my older sister's stuff!!! I always wonder why the letter didn't come to me and I have FINALLY solve this mystery.

It my fault for anyhow throwing and placing my stuff at home without keep them properly.
YES!!!
I am very lazy to keep things properly that why things always go missing at home.

SO!
I got an enlightenment through this incident which is ...
I SHALL NEVER TRUST THEM WITH MY STUFF ANYMORE!

I need learn how to be more independent already.
COME ON SAM!! YOU ARE 19 YEARS OLD ALREADY!!

For this holiday,
- I going make an extra letter box key for myself
- Get a divider to sort my stuff properly and neatly
- Save $ for a SAFE!!
- Pickup on books how to be independent and character building.

BIG THANKS TO THEM!

Craze!

2008-11-23T19:15:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was a very long day, I was out since 6.15am and reached home 12am!

A group of us went to help up with the Silver Infocomm Day, it was a quite interesting event.
Imagine the whole event is filled with 50 years old and above people...
LOL!! It was totally crazy!!
Chee Yang and me was post to the redemption counter, however, somehow the work we doing is more then that. We are suppose to identify who is going which classroom then later pass them their free gifts... You know typical Singapore uncle and auntie? When they see people giving out free stuff, they want to know how to get it too... So we need explain how to get this, how to register, why we need to see the coupon, why got so many sticker and blah blah. Tiring! Lucky we do half day only!

End of the half day shift, the guys stayed back to play Wii. It super fun and tiring!! And that Jin Yong keep breaking records -_- So I stayed until 4pm then left to meet JJ.

JJ and me first went to Queensway, actually I wanted to get my Puma bag but in the end I still didn't buy it ): Should I buy??
And my ATM card... FINALLY it spoiled!! The whole magnetic stripe came off LOL!
There wasn't much stuff to see at Queensway so we left and went to Bugis.

It long time I last went to Bugis to see stuff. We went to Topman shop to see clothes and I SAW A NEW SLIM JEANS FOR $69!!!! As for JJ he going aim for that black slim jeans which I have too (:. After Topman we wander around Bugis, I could not find any bag look like the Puma so quite sad about it. Bugis is almost same as Queens which was quite boring too. We didn't stay long and we left around 7pm to meet Karthis at Cathay.

After buying the tickets, 3 of us went to eat BK. This time the Mushroom Swiss I ordered was good! The cheese is overflowing out!! YUMMY!!! But the burger still lose in size of Tendergrill >=O! BOOO!! And here where Karthis and me started talking crap.

Karthis said I need a gf to calm myself down!! But he also said that with my type of attitude I will chase girls away.LOL!! I can't really remembered what we crap but the whole night was talking about finding gf. Crapped all the way until the cinema and when THX ad came out, I suddenly "RAWR" at Karthis and he got shocked LOLOL!!

Madagarscar was very funny but it only 1 hour movie! Short and sweet :D

Okay it time to do project!! Since afternoon I still have not do any signficant proccess for the gems assignment yet!!! AWWW SAM FOCUS!

(: or ): ?

2008-11-18T23:48:00.004+08:00

There was a string of negative thoughts just appeared from my mind and I started to feel down.
I lost my mood to do the WEBS tutorial, so I went to check my email and I saw a email which was send by my sister.

Vitamins for the Mind

Learn how to be happy with what you have while you pursue all that you want.

Happiness is not an accident. Nor is it something you wish for. Happiness is something you design.

How sad to see a father with money and no joy. The man studied economics, but never studied happiness.

The greatest source of unhappiness comes from inside.

Happiness is the art of learning how to get joy from your substance.

Happiness is not something you postpone for the future; it is something you design for the present.

Four Essentials for Happiness by Brian Tracy

You may have a thousand different goals over the course of your lifetime, but they all will fall into one of four basic categories. Everything you do is an attempt to enhance the quality of your life in one or more of these areas.

The first category is your desire for happy relationships. You want to love and be loved by others. You want to have a happy, harmonious home life. You want to get along well with the people around you, and you want to earn the respect of the people you respect. Your involvement in social and community affairs results from your desire to have happy interactions with others and to make a contribution to the society you live in.

The second category is your desire for interesting and challenging work. You want to make a good living, of course, but more than that, you want to really enjoy your occupation or profession. The very best times of your life are when you are completely absorbed in your work.

The third category is your desire for financial independence. You want to be free from worries about money. You want to have enough money in the bank so that you can make decisions without counting your pennies. You want to achieve a certain financial state so that you can retire in comfort and never have to be concerned about whether or not you have enough money to support your lifestyle. Financial independence frees you from poverty and a need to depend upon others for your livelihood. If you save and invest regularly throughout your working life, you will eventually reach the point where you will never have to work again.

The fourth and final category is your desire for good health, to be free of pain and illness and to have a continuous flow of energy and feelings of well-being. In fact, your health is so central to your life that you take it for granted until something happens to disrupt it.

Peace of mind is essential for every one of these. The greater your peace of mind, the more relaxed and positive you are, the less stress you suffer, the better is your overall health.

The more peace of mind you have, the better are your relationships, the more optimistic, friendly and confident you are with everyone in your life. When you feel good about yourself on the inside, you do your work better and take more pride in it. You are a better boss and coworker. And the greater your overall peace of mind, the more likely you are to earn a good living, save regularly for the future and ultimately achieve financial independence.

Life is very much a study of attention. Whatever you dwell upon and think about grows and expands in your life. The more you pay attention to your relationships, the quality and quantity of your work, your finances and your health, the better they will become and the happier you will be.

"The first category is your desire for happy relationships. You want to love and be loved by others. You want to have a happy, harmonious home life. You want to get along well with the people around you, and you want to earn the respect of the people you respect. Your involvement in social and community affairs results from your desire to have happy interactions with others and to make a contribution to the society you live in."

I love this paragraph! I really desire for happy relationships!!

I need work more on improving the relationships with my friends.

So I must be even more open-minded :D

THANKS JIE!!

for this wonderful email (:

SAM is sad :D

2008-11-17T00:38:00.000+08:00

AWW NO MORE THAILAND ALREADY ):!!!
TICKET TOO EXPENSIVE ):!

REFRESHING (:

2008-11-17T00:09:00.004+08:00

Yeaaaaa~
Back from jogging and work out.
Just now was talking about grouping for project...
Deciding group really sucks. Never mind it over already (:

Yesterday night Bey told me he working as mascot now and he showed some pictures... LOLOL
I next time post the picture (:

Anyway I spent my whole weekend at home rotting! Actually I didn't really rot, I got watch movie and Bleach!!
YEA NEL IS CUTE!! HER GROWN UP FORM IS CHIO AND HER VOICE IS SPECIAL!!!
Okok enough of Bleach already.

Finally I managed to study!!!!
YESYES!! 1 CHAPTER EACH FROM DMS AND OPS!!!!
Although is just 2 short chapter, I still felt a sense of achievement for myself :D

A very good news for me...
I AM GOING THAILAND WITH JJ AND HIS PARENTS!!!
YEAYEAYEAYEA!!!
I GOING INVEST ALL MY MONEY INTO THAT TRIP!!
MASS SHOPPPING!!
YESYESYES!!!

Oh ya talking about Thailand.... *I know it random to link this 2 event tgt ;p*
I met up with JJ on Friday to go Queensway to see stuff (:
I saw my puma bag which i was been eyeing at it for very long....
Its $42 and the size I wanted!!
But JJ said the bag only matches when I wear my slim jeans.
Awwww I really like that bag but no way I going to wear jeans for the sake of it >={
Never mind I shall hunt a nice bag in Thailand :D
After walking around, We went eat at Mac!
I ate MEEEEEEGGGGGAAAA BBBIIIIGGG MMMAACCC..
FOR ALL DOUBLE CHEESE BURGER LOVER OUT THERE!!!
THIS IS MEGA BIG MAC IS LIKE DOUBLE 'DOUBLE CHEESE BURGER'!!!
AWESOME!!!
I was so full that I tried force down the remaining fries unwilling :D

Okie It time to sleep already :D
Tml it monday which mean a new and fun day!!

I must talk!

2008-11-14T01:38:00.002+08:00

Today in a pratical lesson, I kept myself quiet for awhile and I ended up EMO-ING!
I seriously hate emo-ing!!
Nothing nice come out when i emo -_-
Awwww I concluded!
I must make sure I keep talking to someone
or keep my mind occupied...
BEING QUIET IS EVIL >={

2008-11-09T22:26:00.004+08:00

I NEED START DOING WORK NOW!
STUDY LAAA!! I NEED GET MY GPA 3.8 DE!! SAM U NOT GOING HAVE 3.8 IF U KEEP GOING ON LIKE THAT

DO PROJECT!! BE MORE RESPONSIBLE AND DO PROJECT FOR GOODNESS SAKE!! BE A BETTER LEADER DUMB PIG!!

START EXECISING!! FAT PIG DONT EAT EAT EAT AND SLEEP!!!
DAMN IT I NEED GET RID OF THAT BLOODY FAT CHEST AND TUMMY AND TIGHT!!

STOP WASTING MONEY COS U NOT FREAKING RICH KID AT ALL!!
SAVE MONEY DUDE SAVE!!!

AND LASTLY FOLLOW YOUR GOALS!!!
STOP SLACKING!! WHAT HAVE U BEEN DOING FOR THESE WHOLE YEAR HUH!?
SLACK SLACK SLACK SLACK!! WAIT UNTIL LAST MIN THEN DO!!!

STUPID SAM!! FAT SAM!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!
DO YOUR PROJECT NOW!!! AND STOP SLACKING YOU PIG!

I AM NOT HAPPY

2008-11-09T22:18:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY MERV!!!!

AWWWWWWWWW
AWWWWWWWW

WHAT THE !!!!!
I WASTED OTHER WEEKEND!!

I AM NOT HAPPY HAPPY
I AM SO LAZY LIKE A PIG PIG PIG PIG PIG

SOMEONE PLEASE SCOLD OR BEAT ME NOW!!

YES I MUST LEARN HOW TO HATE MYSELF FOR BEING LAZY
AWWWWWWWW

Babies babies babies!?!?!?

2008-11-03T00:14:00.003+08:00

I spent most of my weekend watching Naruto!!!
It was fun!! Sakura X Naruto :3!

However.....
I am guilty of not study and doing project!!!
Awwww time to study!!!
Sam, you are so lazy!
Sam, you big fat pig!
YES I AM!!

So now I wan make babies!!

Werid!?

2008-11-01T22:09:00.002+08:00

If Linda never talked to me just now, I also won't noticed that I am at home right now...
It rare for me to be at home during Saturday night because most of time I will be out with my frens watching movie. But there isn't any nice movie today so no point going out (:

Sorry Merv, I failed to finish the research...
Ahhh I getting very very very lazy! Need do some really serious self-reflection
Aww got a headache again -_- I shall go sleep now.

2008-10-29T22:36:00.002+08:00

Forgot to post this in the previous post >.<

I saw this at Grand Cathay on Sat night.

1. Go gym
2. Go jogging.
3. Lose weight
4. -Forgot le-
5. Fall in love!
6. Be next top model =D

Something like that...
And I love the goals!!

goals

2008-10-26T21:48:00.002+08:00

This weekend was much better then the previous as I had managed kept myself busy (:

We had buffet at Yum Cha @ Chinatown on friday!! Yummy!!
After the great Dim Sum-s, we went walked around Chinatown...
That place really bring back nice memories especially that ulu ulu lanshop ;o

I went for my first SPFCC food trip to Marche @ Vivo....
The food was very very very expensive!!!
The event was boring as nothing much happened so I left them right after phototaking session.

Watched Tropic Thunder at night.
It was a very funny show but half of time I could not understand what they saying.

Awwww!
I can't think properly now...
Feel so drained!

enough

2008-10-19T21:29:00.002+08:00

Rested almost for the whole day.
I not sure why I am so tired today until I took a nap for 2hours.

But good thing is that ...

I AM BACK TO NORMAL AGAIN (:!
Past is the past,
I try not to think too much and continue look forward!

No time to blog~
Project first!

the unexpected

2008-10-19T02:39:00.003+08:00

The world is so small.
After one year and seven months since she left...
I finally got a chance to meet and talked to her on this friday evening.
Firstly, I really didn't expect to see her at her own school.
Secondly, I was so lost when I saw her.
Lastly, the true is that I always wanted to meet her for one more time.
I missed the short duration together we spent together, although there were of conflicts between us.
In the MRT, I was reflecting and pondering on some things.
I have though of many things.
And there one thing which I really hate myself now.

I am very grateful for Merv for listening to me and walked with me all the way to Central.

Arhh!! After one hour trying to blog, I still couldn't finish it. Some more my sentences all like don't make sense at all and I can't think properly at all!!
I think I too exhausted and tired now ....

Day One of School

2008-10-13T21:01:00.004+08:00

Amazing I WOKE UP AT 7 TODAY!

On my way to MRT, I witnessed the army of adult going to BB MRT station. They were like marching towards there >.> What a scene! And Merv said they were more like zombies which is quite true :x

In mist of a lesson, Merv helped me count my GPA.... AND I NEED AT LEAST 3.8GPA to get my average 3.5 GPA by end of year 3 ): Time work extra hard!

Finally, I went back to jogging and gym again! As usual, I lost all my muscle again so it going be a hard time for me to retrain back. And I also decided I should start taking driving lesson.

This will be one busy sem again!! Hope I will lot of fun!!

Super Super Super Fun Day!

2008-10-03T00:51:00.006+08:00

Slacked and rotted at home for the last two day -_-
Finally, I got chance to go out and play today!

Before I leave the house, I was watching a Kdrama 'The Vineyard Man'.
I only watched till 4th episode and it is super funny!
Yoon Eun Hye (who acted in Goong) is very very hot and pretty in this show!

Today badminton game was super lame , crazy and uber fun =D!

There were four of us, Keith, Justin , Karthis and me, but we only got 3 rackets.
So one of us must sacrifice....
End up I tried used slipper to play but I failed because my slipper is too soft and Karthis don't want me use his slipper =(
Keith used his slipper which was HARD and WOW the shuttlecock do fly!LOL!!
We are like 4 weirdos playing badminton and most of time we are laughing instead of playing seriously.

After badminton, we got back to Justin home. Before we left the house, Keith , Karthis and me went to eat the cheese cake which was made like 2 weeks ago by Justin and me!? Amazing! The cheese cake still taste as good as it was just made fresh :X

The 2 weeks old cheese cake! LOL!! It was so HARD that I can't even bite it -_-

Steamboat!!

Our YUMMY DINNER!

HOTDOGS! We all love to eat it =3

The mess that we created =X

Before and while we had our steamboat, we where playing 'RockBand' in PS3!
It was totally crazy and funny, 3 people playing on a drumset for the Expert Mode and WE SURVIVED!!! And we sang on the mic in RockBand too! Bey and me was happily shouting and making weird voices (:

Back home feeling so bloated and full -_- Ahhhhhh the food today was rather bad ): Everything is CMI even my most favourite fish dumpling taste BAD ):! Only the udon and 'Jin Zeng Gu" taste the best ~~~

Still it was such CRAZY, HYPER , FUN , FUNNY AND ENJOYABLE day!!!

Flavour Of Life

2008-10-01T01:41:00.004+08:00

Flavour Of Life by Utada Hikaru

~English Translation~

When you say thank you to me,
For some reason it hurts,
Like a magic spell that doesn't
Get undone even after the good bye.
A hint of bitterness.
The flavor of life

Stuck midpoint between friends and lovers,
Like an un-riped fruit dreaming about the day of harvest
Because of being unable to just move one more step forward
What's causing this frustration baby

When you say thank you to me,
For some reason it hurts,
Like a magic spell that doesn't
Get undone even after the good bye.
A hint of bitterness
The flavor of life

Sweet talk and tasteless conversations.
It sparks no interest in me
Even when things do not go the way you want
It doesnt mean you've thrown your life away

When asked ‘What's wrong?'
I answer ‘It's nothing'
The smile that disappears after goodbye
It's unlike me

The more I wish to believe in you,
For some reason it hurts even more
'I like you a lot' instead of 'I love you' sounds more like you
The flavor of life

The period when you suddenly remember the scent of someone you had almost forgotten
I want to be able to openly and honestly cherish the white purity of the falling snow more

A future tender and warmer than a diamond
I want to grasp it, in this limited time we have, I want to spend it with you

When you say thank you to me,
For some reason it hurts,
Like a magic spell that doesn't
Get undone even after the good bye.
A hint of bitterness
The flavor of life

Very beautiful song!
At first, I thought this song was quite dumb because always at sad part of the show the word 'Thank You' was sang... So I didn't make sense to me ._. After I saw the Ballad Verison in Youtube together with english Subs. WOW it was meaningful and touching (:!

Genting Trip!

2008-09-28T23:06:00.014+08:00

MY FIRST PICTURE!!!
SAY Hi to Merv!

Hahaha took me a week to start blogging about genting!

The night before we left for Genting was quite crazy!

Merv was suppose to come my house to stay for one night but somehow we ended up playing and chatting the whole night together with Jingshi ;p

Merv and me in my room!

While I was packing my bag for the trip, we called Js to ask her whether she got 'Charcoal'. (Charcoal is some sort of drug that prevent you from shitting, it is not those BBQ charcoal)
And i asked her whether got BIG FAT BLACK Charcoal and she replied outside her house got.
Then we started ROFL-ing. After packing finish, i suggested to we meet Js and play until the next day.

Quite few things happened during the night itself. First of all, I made Merv walked with me one big round to Jingshi's house. Although it was quite long walk, it was rather fun cause got Merv accompany me (:! After that we met Jingshi and went to her house near by carpark to chit chat. Somehow we went to coffee shop to drink Teh and when we wanted to go back home, it started raining... and we ended up in Jingshi house -_-!! Her house was nice and very interesting espically her hamster! We are super impressed by it.

4.40am...
We took cab back to my home and get ready to leave for genting! On the way to Lakeside MRT, we met JinYong, YongRong and CheeYang =D
7.30am
WE SET OFF TO GENTING!

I actually wanted to sleep in the bus but Cs and Jy keep playing some stuff -_-. So didn't really get a good rest.

Bus (:

After long long ride.. WE REACH GENTING! It was very cold there ;o

I hate process of waiting for check-in into our hotel... it was very long that we waited for about 1 hour? But from the place we waiting, we can see Space Shot going up and DOWN. After checking in, we went to our hotel room and put our bags. And we guys went to style our hair!

My masterpiece!!!! Jealous of his hair ): Poor Cs ... His face half covered by Js

JinYong hair was super cool too... Super Saiyan! Too bad we didn't took a picture of it ):

First day we didn't went to theme park so we wondering around the Indoor Theme Park. I was on the mission to buy 'Mo Gu' for Justin they all... BUT THE SHOP WENT MISSING ):! And we hate a quite bad late lunch at the Shanghai restaurant.

I can't remember what we do for the first day. But the best part of the day was the 'Healing Touch' Massage!

Only three brave soul we went to Fish Spa and laugh like no tomorrow( Actually I was the one keep laughing like crazy ;x)

See these fish! So cute and nice... BUT WHEN THEY BITE IT IS VERY ITCHY -_-!

Me acting tough... BUT I really CMI ... It was torture to me and somemore last for 10mins!

After fish spa, it was the foot massage.... HAHAHAHA
I got owned by it so badly -_-!! It was super super pain la! I like keep shouting pain and keep laughing like crazy. I think i had gone mad during the massage. Cy, Jy and Merv was strong... They kept silence for the whole time unlike me ;x Yr also very strong too only little noise. Next to me was Js... Everytime she said pain, I will start laughing ;x

The massage session is good (: The reason why we feel so much pain because we everytime sleep very late. And I made a fren which is called 'Sam' too! (He the one massage me ;o AND HE USED ALOT OF STRENGTH! I saw his muscle which was very big O.O)

Second day

To be continue.... HAHAHAA

I hate this game!

2008-09-28T22:25:00.002+08:00

STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID GC!!

I CHIONG WHOLE DAY FOR THE ONE DICE DICE DICE DICE DICE!!! -_-
I am just a idot sitting there whole day just to be warlock...

Only stupid people like me do that....

Friends!

2008-09-28T04:09:00.002+08:00

It 4am in the morning and I just got back home!! Just watched the movie "The House Bunny" with Justin, JJ, Bey and Karthis!
Mmmmmmm the movie was very funny and touching...
I won't deny that the girls in the show are really hot >.>

Today we talked about a really really interesting topic 'Halal'.
When I was Genting, we were wondering how the malaya cook our bak ku teh. A
nd I somehow got the answer... Karthis said that they don't know do something then can touch it.
Amazing!

Ok I need learn how to upload pictures so that I can start posting many things like cheesecake and genting!

Having friends are best thing in my life!

exam result

2008-09-17T10:33:00.001+08:00

Better than I expected!!
I pulled back my GPA up to 3 again!!
=3

DEAD BLOG :3

2008-09-14T23:13:00.003+08:00

Yes! My blog has died for one month!
I am a big fat lazy pig who didn't blog for 1 month ;p
Okay! Now I shall summaries my holidays!

I shall start with my LTC!
LTC was suppose to fun, crazy, insane and ... (Can't think of any words)
THE WORST CAMP I EVER BEEN WAS THIS LTC!
WHY!?
BLAME MYSELF!
I GOT BAD TUMMY PAIN FOR 2 and HALF DAYS IN THE CAMP!
THE PAIN WHICH KILL THE FUN
THE PAIN WHICH KILL THE JOY
THE PAIN WHICH KILL THE EXCIETMENT
and i emo-ed most of time in the camp ):!

BUT i still liked this camp!
It is so relaxing!
Imagine....
Surrounded by azure blue sea.
Sitting in the on hand-made wood chair.
Windy sea breeze cooling you down.
Ahhhhhh.....
Shiok!

Although I didn't mixed a lot my group members which I had regretted the most in this camp,
I like my group because I feel very relax together with them. Also, the jokes (: Laugh and Laugh.
The world is so so so small! I met Wei Ming, Shu Wee and Sok Gin cousin! I was actually quite slow because only on the 3rd day which i was emoing at the beach then I started to remember that guy looked familliar ... Tada! Then we had very a good chat!

On the 3rd day...
I CHOPPED A CHICKEN AAAASSSSSSSSSSS! THE BUTT! *actually in the end uncle david was the one which chopped it nicely for me ._.* AND I PUTTTTT OUT THE I N T E N S T I N E!! *it was warm too =s* Tada! We cooked.... wait wait! We roasted the chicken and eat together with the rice but i didnt dare to eat cos of my Stomach! ):

POST LTC DAYS.....

FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN !!!
One day after the camp....
Yr, js and merv and me meet up!
Hmmmm i really cant rmb wat happen on the day, but i only rmb we took neoprints!!Ah!! After so long time... I managed to take my 2rd neoprint!! The last time i took my neoprints was with the AnD ;O
In the night, meet with karthis and gang watch movie! I think Wall.E ba..
GOSH THEY ARE SO CUTE AND LOVING!!

Sunday! Meet up with a very beautiful girl (: Can't my eyes off her :x Joking! But she really wear very nice on that day.

Monday..... I tried my best to recall. I played pool with Justin and Jia Jun! It was super funny! I am a professional
who always do wonderful shots~~~ OHOHOH I won't say so much about it ;x

Tuesday..... I watched Money Not Enough 2!!! Funny and meaningful. Such a great mother they got in the show (: After movie, js, merv and me walked to ... (which I dunno where) to find a coffee shop to eat. The proccess of walking was very fun =D 2 retarded kids crapping all the way tgt with a so called 'boy'. And that where we started our... "Yea... PingGuMama" LOLOL
Later in the night, we met yr and make present for celeste! WRAPPING!

Sam has LEVEL UP! to 18! That wat they said, and we continue to chit chat (:

ok I cannot continue blogging for now ;o i SHALL CONTINUE!!

Wall E

2008-08-11T23:13:00.001+08:00

The craziest thing I have done for love is..

Do my very bes to love the person

Catch Wall-E in cinemas from 28 August 2008.

Originator blog: http://matthew-zachary.blogspot.com

2008-07-14T07:49:00.003+08:00

FINALLY STUPID GIDDY HEAD IS GONE!!

My weekend was wasted due to the stupid head. It was so heavy until i cant even walk properly.
On Sat, i could not eat anything because i vomitted everything i ate ;o
Spent more 12 hours sleeping for SAT!
Had a long chat with justin during the early morning ^^
Learned many things about him and from him.

Sun i feel a bit better so i started doing project :D
Do until 10pm+, i feel like vomiting and my head like spinning rounds and rounds!
Decided to stop ACG as i cant focus on it anymore ;/

The most funniest thing is that my dad told my older sis i fainted in the toilet!!!
I was just vomiting infront the toilet bowl only! I not even lying on the floor -_-
Then my family conclude that i did have enough sleep which result to this giddiness.
However, my sis think that is my project that keep giving me stress. (btw i didnt really focus alot on project)
But when come to think of stress...
Maybe i was very affected and thinking too much by things happened.

Suddenly everything just went badly for me.

Firstly, the result of MST...
1 B and all Ds
I not sure why i did so badly...
If never do well at least give C mah!
DUN NEED ALL D -_-

Secondly, LOVE LOVE LOVE
I cant remember how many times I just breakdown and cry in my toilet -_-
Last Thursday, I just couldnt help it...
I was so emotionally unstable that i just cried almost the whole night ._.
Next day in school, the moment i think about it, i can feel tears coming out but i learned one way to cover up my tears ;/

Anyway after chatting with ryan and justin for the weekend...
Maybe i should learn to let go.
after all the more i hold on, things just get worst.

Anyway its time for school (:

Fall out of love

Downfall of this blog

2008-07-07T08:08:00.002+08:00

Closing down this blog soon (:
Will remake a new one ;D

2008-06-30T23:09:00.005+08:00

Because of these emotions, I keep ignoring or give her attitude.
I feel like asshole, whenever i not happy i keep doing tat
Always make her unhappy and angry.
I am crazy.
I not even worthy for her.

I just bastard who can't make things better for her and keep giving her more problems only.

i am a screwed up guy

2008-06-30T21:30:00.003+08:00

I really have enough of it already!
CAN SOMEONE JUST GIVE ME A EARPLUG AND STUFF IT INTO MY EARS!?
It super hurting and pain to hear people say like
"They 2 come in pair, come together leave together"
"Where they 2? What happen to them?"
"Since they 2 outside? Why don't we ps them and let them have sweet time together?"
"Why 2 always like that the are?"
"Why they always together?"
.... and many more.
Almost everyday i been hearing all these.

IT REALLY HURT ME ALOT AND I FEEL VERY PAIN WHEN I KEEP HEARING THIS.
SOMETIME I JUST WANT TO CRY BUT I CANT.
I MUST KEEP CONTROL CONTROL CONTROL IT

I always try to ignore it.
BUT HOW LONG CAN I HOLD?

I know some of u will think that I very stupid or weird
because me and her are not together but I so affected by this stuff.

And I didn't dare tell many people about this because i dun wan people to know that she is involved.
So i always act like there nothing happen between us.
And keep on go against my heart.
I can't follow my heart at all.

Seriously what wrong with me?
I always like angry?
Or keep giving attitude to people?
Making people unhappy?
No proper time management?
Yes, i am very selfish. I AM JUST A GUY WHO EASILY JEALOUS
THAT IT!!

Simply i am screwed

2008-06-02T01:52:00.002+08:00

Sometime how I hope life can be easy as abc.
Sorry the world is cruel...
Even you work hard for it,
Thing always don't go the way you want.
Sometime I wish I can understand more about myself.
What do I really want?
Why I always contradicting myself?

In quiet night like this...
How I wish I will be crying now
But I can't
Why?

After all, I am a very scary person

I have decided

2008-06-01T03:46:00.003+08:00

I learned many weakness about myself and I not going to let it be as it is!
I going try to improve in my communications skills and stop being so naggy (like my father)
Control my emotion
And stop being so jealous over small things
I need try speak clearly once again.
Be more open and do more sport.

As for my heart, I have decided.
Maybe I'm not really ready for love after all.
So I decided to end this matter asap.
If I continue on, I think I will be like a irritatant.

2008-05-27T23:12:00.003+08:00

One day, a boy lost one of precious person he once liked because he didn't give the person a chance to have more time to change.
End up, he regreted and feel very guilty of what he did.

Now this young boy meet other precious person he love.

We can talk and play a lot.
BUT
in the end we are two different characters.
There are something I think I don't understand you.
And you also can't understand me.

____________________________________________________________
Enough of this emo thing le ;o
I feel much better now (:
Thanks...
Thanks .... (:

What happening to me?

2008-05-27T22:33:00.002+08:00

What happening to me?

Why am I acting like this?

That a very good question for me too...

Stress over ELSA Pract test?
Stress over SAPD ?
Stress over SDT?
Stress over Proposal?

I don't feel stress at all, i just feel that is very rush that all.

Then why I like so tired or emo?

My heart is weak.
Why am I always this weak when it come to these matters?
Why?

Can I hate love?

2008-05-26T23:51:00.003+08:00

I need learn how to control my emotions better.
I can't forever let it take control of my mind ;o
The moment it just take all...
I lose my concentration
I lose my mind
I lose my focus
It isn't like me anymore.
I hate it.

There I have many unanswer question and thoughts about it
But I don't wish to repeat the same mistake once again...

Two different world?

Lord, give me power to pull through this week...

dead tired

2008-05-24T22:37:00.002+08:00

Learn many new stuff today (:
And went to canoeing training ;D
I okay with the training but i not ready to be involve in a competitive CCA. That all.
After that met up with ryan and merv for dinner (:
Yea we had a time talking ;D
I did get some answer which I was thinking.

Ok that all.
I am physically and mentally tired now.
Good night

2008-05-24T07:45:00.001+08:00

Lesson learned (:

2008-05-22T18:55:00.000+08:00

Just leave me alone for tonight (:
Thanks

Busted >.<

2008-05-21T23:19:00.000+08:00

Awww I got been caught spending too much le ):
Anyway is my fault that I spend too much on too many things >.>
SOSOO from now till end of month must find ways to get $200!
GO SAM GO! RAWR!

interesting day (:

2008-05-21T21:36:00.002+08:00

Had a quite interesting day :D

First time, someone followed me to see how my braces are being fixed.
Drank a Super Big Gulp which contain almost all the different flavours and even drank at least 300ml of it!
lucky didn't had a bad tummy ache ;p

Basically, I didn't do anything for night ;/
Yea I slacked >.>
Somehow I was searching for songs and i lost the time ;x
Now kind lost the focus to do stuff;/
But some work still need to be done ;D
SOSOSO BACK TO WORK!!

I though of something today (:
It quite complicated ...
I will leave it as a secret for time being.

Being in love is awesome but it is complicated.

2008-05-21T00:23:00.002+08:00

I want to sleep ):
For 1 week, I didn't get a chance to have a long nice sleep ;O
But too bad, there are important stuff still waiting for me to do it.
Target now!
By this Sunday, must complete SAPD and SDT!
I shall stop here for now (:

Your presence

it time for some action (: BROOM

2008-05-20T00:25:00.002+08:00

Its nice to see people becoming more positive and willing to change for the better (:
And it time for me to take big actions!
RAWR!!!
FOP!
FOC!
DATABASE!
(btw the members start doing DB le!!! OM what am i doing!?)
ASSIGMENT!!!
RAWR

too many stuff >.> but i will do them for sure!
Need slowly one by one clear them off!
this way i won't have so much burden~

I noticed I getting fatter and flabby >.>
BAD
I WAN SLIM SLIM SLIM SLIM~
Know those sexy models
YEA THOSE I WANT!
I WILL FIND SEXY MODELS*GUY* POSTER
AND STARE AT THEM!!
*i not gay*
I JUST WAN TO BE MOTIVATED BY IT!!
Okie i must doing some basic short term goal
20 push up everyday
50 sit ups
50 squarts
RUNNING!! ->> LOSE FATS LOSE IT ALL RAWR!
Should be easy right?
And more hardcore gym session!

I might go into some minor changes.
After going through a very tough part of my life.
I learn many things through many people...
I think I like to help change people for the better
I want to be someone who is able to influence and encourage people who stuck with their bad habits and change to someone that is more positive and full of life.
Maybe that why I am here for this world.

That why my name is called 'Samuel' -> find my meaning of name and you understand why (:

Life is amazing, don't you agree?

2008-05-15T00:57:00.003+08:00

Thanks everyone for helping me when I'm lost (:
I agree that I should fight for my happiness.
But I could not do it the hard way.
Yea. Like what one of you said....
I am soft heart >.>

Do not worry (:
I will live my life to fullest
No matter how happen I will try to be the cheerful and crazy me!
This a time where I need learn and experience something important.
So no matter what the outcome.
I support you and give you my blessing.
And I will be always a very good friend beside you, I will do my best to help you if you have problem.

And to friends that I know, I will also do my best to help you too!
So feel free to seek help from me!
I know i sucks in comforting but I can crap jokes too!

2008-05-12T22:18:00.002+08:00

I a guy who can't stand there see a friend suffer...
I will try my best help them
I am that type of person.

Really Sorry for misunderstanding you...

2008-05-12T19:45:00.002+08:00

In everybody life, there will be always problems no matter how hard we try to avoid it.

For me now...
The biggest problem is very complicated >.>
It a problem that can't be settle by myself.
And I can't do a single thing about it too.
So i decided to let it be
Like others said its terrible feeling and painful thing to let things as it is
Sometime I feel like I fighting in losing battle
Sometime I feel I being toyed
Can say I think too much
I agree about it that I think too much.
So best is just put this problem one side

There are many other things to do.
And I going work hard for it!
Okay! I don't want think too much of this problem
This problem will be with me every minute as long I never give up
So there no point I keep dwell about it.

something special in my life?

2008-05-12T01:06:00.002+08:00

I celebrate Mother's Day today o.o!
Its was first time in my life celebrating this (:
So it is a very special day which I will never forget that easily ^^
I had a great time for the last day xD
MAJONG >:] STRAIGHT FOR TWO DAYS!
I was trained under in tough environment with many pros >.<
Although it was tough, but I did learn a lot of stuff from them.
In the end , I would like 'Thank a lot' that all I want to say to people who are always care and concern for me!
And thanks to you for inviting me too (:!

And and and...
I watched Speed Racer already (:
It was a 2 hours movie, but it seem to be longer then that >.>
Learn couple of things from the movie ;p
One is don't let the past keep preventing you from moving forward.
Next is family and friends are always there for you whenever you got problem.

2008-05-10T03:56:00.002+08:00

Woke up again...
Don't feel like sleeping at all
Now I start to to regret what I did just now
Suddenly I feel so dumb and stupid
Why am I running away? Why? Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?

2008-05-10T01:12:00.000+08:00

In the end, I choose to run away.
Can say I foolish, stupid or dumb, I won't even care.
I am just a loser who just run away from everything.
I don't want to be love anymore because I afraid I will run away again.
I hope this the last time I will lose someone very important to me.
It really hurts me.

Thanks for not stopping me this time, I really appreciate for what you did.
Hope you will find a better guy then me.
Hope you will find happiness.
And lastly live your life to your fullest.
That all I can say.

2008-05-09T00:31:00.000+08:00

Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can’t explain myself at all.
And all that wants
And all that needs
All I don’t want to need at all.

The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight
It ends tonight.

A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can’t explain what you can’t explain.
Your finding things that you didn’t know
I look at you with such disdain

The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

[Chorus]
When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight will make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Now I’m on my own side
It’s better than being on your side
It’s my fault when your blind
It’s better that I see it through your eyes

All these thoughts locked inside
Now you’re the first to know

It Ends Tonight - The All-American Rejects

Leave me alone

2008-05-08T23:13:00.003+08:00

There many things I have been going in and out of my mind...

Laughing like crazy, keep talking crap, do crazy stuff and many more. I like my positive side now. But now I feel that I becoming more scary as each day passed... I am afraid that I will change to someone that I do not know anymore. A selfish person who want everything its way? A selfish person who will betray friends? A useless person who keep running away from problem? A useless person who only keep giving friends problems that are stupid and small? I don't want to become like this.... But what can I do? Ignore it?

I do not want to bring any problems to her anymore.
I do not want to trouble her.
I do not want to any bad things happen between me and him.
I do not want to destroy our friendship because of me.
I do not want to betray him.
I do not want her to worry for me.
I do not want her to be sad because I am sad or whatever.

I just want things like in the past?
Like what she said she want it like the past where we are all friends.
Can I do it? Even I can do it in the outside but I can't do in the inside.
How can I remain calm when you know there other guy chasing her?
What can I do now?
Sit and watch?
Others told me I should take action and do something, but I keep giving myself excuse that I do not know how to do.
I weak and useless.
I afraid of the outcome, that why I didn't take any actions.
In the end I chose to sit down and watch.
But that isn't helping me...
Everyone is like naturally pull them together....
Everytime the moment they keep say that my heart hurts....
But isn't that my fault? Cause I the one who chose to sit and watch.
I have no rights to complain as it was my choice
Neither I have the rights to stop him nor her
They have their own rights to do what they want
Its their own life and decisions
Like how I chose 'Sit and Watch'....
Its my decisions.....

I afraid of the reality.
I really just want to get out of this situation.
I want to run away
But I can't let go.

Weak and so many excuses....
I starting to hate myself for my foolishness.
Like what my blog name is....
Inerasable memories.
So ironic isn't it?
If I have a chance, I might want my whole entire memory erase....
Even I have regrets, there isn't much choice
Seriously what can I do now?
Wait is the right choice...
But I'm very scare that the evil within me will change me
I do not know how long I hold anymore

Can someone slap,punch or kick me now?
Wake me up from this craziness.
Wake me up from this foolishness.
In the first place, I shouldn't be in the picture.
Things will be alright if I didn't say anything?
I am such a troublesome guy.
Only know how to bring stupid problems around and troubled people.

The last thing I want now...
I do wish she will not keep blaming herself because of me.
I rather disappear or gone if she really do that.

Someone please shut my stupid mind and heart now.

Lost lost lost lost lost

2008-05-07T21:20:00.004+08:00

Long time since last blog... Lazy to explain what happen in school, basically I was super high in school everyday (:

But since last week, my items are either lost or spoil -_- shoe lost, slipper snapped, other slipped spoiled and no friction and my the specs the condition is getting worst. But I didn't even noticed one by one all are spoiled or lost.

And recently, my mind can't be focus or thinking right ._. Suddenly, i feel so aimless and lost. What can I do? Sometime feel like just running away from things, but running away is always a bad choice. So only way now is just move forward.

Lost lost lost lost...

Since everything breaking apart, best is my heart will break too.

Destroy this heart and all the feeling will be lost.

Isn't that nice?

what is pain?

2008-04-23T23:48:00.002+08:00

Like what I said in msn (:! If i need hurt or be cruel to myself for my dreams and goals , by all means I will do it. Even its hurts or pains me too much... I will overcome it (: I think I most likely keep it confidentially how I going to do it ;o I don't think most people will want know it too ;p~

It a decision I made which I will not regret...

smile sam (:

2008-04-23T22:16:00.003+08:00

In one night... so many things happened >.> I also dunno what i am doing too -_- Although i tried not to think too much of things happened, it just keep coming back ;/ LOLOL so how? NO IDEA!! Now I just need to continue my life to fullest!

i lost ._.

wonderful week~! random post

2008-04-20T22:29:00.002+08:00

School reopens! I been even more high and crazy now (: isn't good ?
I want my life everyday happily and everyday shall be a wonderful and precious memory for me! Even though there will downs in part of daily life... Its ok! The more downs and sadness in my life will shape me in better person (: That is what I believe!

OK this is a really random POST . LOLOLOL

a important piece of memory ....

2008-04-14T22:55:00.002+08:00

I do not know how to start this ;/
Hmmmmmmm .... OK!

Val sms Justin about she having piano exam and ask him want to go see her perform. Its was nice of Justin to tell me about this. He think that Val had send wrong sms to the wrong person, but there it might be on purpose or whatever >.>

Its like a year and 1 month plus since we got a news from her?? The last time i saw her was at Vivo BK, after that we never contact her anymore. Yea...

its was a really shocking news for me ;/
Whenever i hear her name, I will always feel uneasy ;o Its something happened between 2 of us, which is a biggest mistake and regrets i ever make in my life * i think ;o?* Now knowing that she got exam in her school and somemore we know the time of her exam too. Been thinking is it a good idea just see her perform a not? I was not invited so it isn't nice to pop out like that right?
Even i do pop out infront of her... what can i say to her? So the whole entire day is 'yes' or 'no' to me ;/ Anyway I glad that she is doing well (: All best to her for tml exam!

No matter what happen... i will not this problem affect my daily life (: I WILL LIVE IT TO MY FULLEST!!! Anyway big thanks to all my frens who help me in way or other ;p

bad me ;o

2008-04-12T02:01:00.002+08:00

I said i wanted to quit cabal but i still could not stop playing it. Ah! lousy me~ However, school gona start soon... so i can say i 90% of time won't be playing it anymore (: My last day of cabal will on Saturday or Sunday! I will have nice farewell ;p~

Just back from watching "Definitely, Maybe" ^^V Its was a very nice romance show *romance show are the best (:!* Think of many things just now... yea its time to really to do something about my lifestyle now >.> Cabal had really destroyed all plans for holiday >:{

one word 'sorry'

2008-04-07T23:38:00.003+08:00

I decided i going quit cabal... ya although its abit wasted .... lvl 100 half way to completer ... blah blah...

really sorry karthis that i suddenly just back off like that... can say i crazy or insane or weirdo

i dunno why i wan to quit, i do no have a really proper reason to quit it either ...

this game was fun but i cannot continue the lifestyle i having... its insane even worst then tat time i chiong my maple

sorry sis for keep not going chruch
sorry all poly classmate keep MIA
sorry justin when he purposely waited for us to chiong lvl and i i ps him n chiong ahead
many sorry....
last of all is sorry to myself

its the end...sam (:

(:

2008-04-01T14:11:00.002+08:00

hahaha i'm back people! SAD Y NO ONE TAG MY BLOG!!! ): EVIL PEOPLE! NEVER TAG ;O SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD ;X

cant blame them either too cos i was the one who really 'disappear' on them first ;p

ok to honestly say what i have been doing last few days .... cabal ;P as usual bad habits kick in >.>
i the 1st one said i will control but in the end wat happened? i chiong like there no tml >.> and one thing i must say ... sorry justin for some sort of 'ps' u ;/

oh ya i had class chalet (: 1st class chalet so its kinda of trial ^^ dunno is it all wan indoor or too lazy to go outdoor? nvm i had my fun can le (: i nv like to stay at home so as long i dun slp at home i happy ;p i dunno others got their fun? seriously i see everyone just sit on the sofa n tv >.> but i did had sun tanning session! hahha ;p

most scary thing is nite cycling the time we spend which was unexpected.... its was way way faster then we imagine -.- and one moer sorry to js for such bumpy ride ;p HAHHAHA i not on purpose de wor ;p is we suay cos we 1st double so we must 'sacrifice' for the others ;x

ok one more thing is tat i got a call that i can quit GV ;o i plannng to quit it but since she faster then me -.- nvm lor just quit now. since its a new sems = new life = new start so time for me to change again (:

Isn't life interesting? People need change everytime (:

dissappear?

2008-03-10T01:46:00.002+08:00

everyone keep say me i MIA >.> hmmm can say so but sometime i just didn't want to go online ...
dun ask me why i dun wan go online ;/

I did noticed something .. bad habits are coming back ;/ I need do something about it soon...

I wan change again... change for the better (:

tired n dead >.>

2008-02-23T21:48:00.002+08:00

last 2 days only had 3-4hours to sleep and i was active for the whole day ;O then today was the worst! with only 3hours of sleep i think ... i stand for 10 hours straight -_- i so tired until dun feel like talking ;o all i do is just smile and smile (:

Interesting night (:

2008-02-18T01:12:00.002+08:00

After putting so much effort and time into it... ADD is finally over ^^!!! Its was amazing how 5 people can run this event so smoothly^^ Although everyone was busy and maybe stress by it, hehe we manged to run it well!! Big thanks to Bast, yong rong, linda and js!

Early in the afternoon, i was helping js and linda wrapping prize and stick on their hands (: The hotel room was very cosy >.< I think i fell asleep twice on the bed ;x? Somemore there air-con!!!

For the fashion show, i meet few models from outside and they are really friendly, helpful and crappy ;D we keep crapping all the weird pose we can do ;D And i was happy that we didn't screwed up the fashion show with so little practice ;p *somehow we managed to drag it for 35mins*
hehehe i don't care did the audience enjoy the fashion show anot, i had my fun and i am satisfied with it ;p

After ADD, we where busy taking pics ;D hahaha its long time since i play around with the cam liao >.> how long ar? ever since last year auguest nv liao ):

Around 1.30, after rushing down from supper, i meet jj, justin and bey to watch jumper ^^ its was quite a nice show but after the movie, i was completely worn out... I like dragging my body around when walking towards cine >.> Then in the cab, my eyes just instant close ;x
In the end, i still managed to tahan to play majong with them till 6am? Its was very fun too cos justin was keep crapping away *jj keep said justin was drunk ;x*

Then went home and took a quick bath and KO on my bed at 7.30am and was distrub by my sis at 2.30pm -.- And the whole day i was still very tired -_-

I love this!

2008-02-14T02:13:00.005+08:00

Gemini and Romance

A love affair with a Gemini requires great stamina, so start doing those push-ups now! The Twins are both fun and funny and love to laugh, play and romp. They are possessed of a very active mind, which can sometimes lead to a short attention span. The best way to keep the Twins around, and aroused, is through mental stimulation. A razor-sharp and imaginative lover is a godsend to the terrific Twins. This sign also values adventure and travel, so a certain footloose and fancy free-ness will help this romance bloom. The duality of the Twins allows them to see both sides of an issue, so in times of stress, they are much likelier to be a lover than a fighter. They will also feel especially connected to those who can help them feel, since they spend so much of their time thinking.

Laaa =3

2008-02-13T01:24:00.000+08:00

Suppose to wake up early in the morning to go jogging but overslept ;x Lucky ah ma called me in the morning to ask me about some job thingy or else i will be super late to meet yong rong at dover mrt ;o

TATATATATA

when walking to mrt....

big crowds....
police cars.....
firefighers.....
CNA people.....

FALLEN CRANE!.....
o.o

no idea wat happen actually ;x

*but in the end, keith told me someone died ;o! sadsad ):*

Met yong rong at dover 12.30pm but her sms said 12.30am ;xLOL then went down to queensway collect stuff and laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Woo at queens hor, got lion dance super loud -_- cant heard each other talking ~

then outside queensway, we 2 saw a super mini car accident! u-turn then PIANG! wooooo

ok enough accidents liao ;D

Went keith house around 4+ wooo so relaxing and i was like a monster hunting all his chinese goodies ;3 YUMMY!! i going hunt more ppl goodies ;3 hehe

at nite, i went to gym with karthis for hardcore training!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~THE END~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

To: All precious frens

Try see life in a more positive way! Don't keep thinking you are an emo, sad, no one care about you, lack of something, incompleted, or whatever negative - person. Everyone are like that too, no one in the world is prefect (: Why keep dwell into the sadness and emoness which keep making you into a negative endless loop mindset ;O Just overcome this evil sad, emo and negative thoughts~ and life will beautiful.

I willingly to try my best cheer, support, help and accompany all of you... (:

Hope to see all of you happy and smile again ^^

exhausted

2008-02-11T18:13:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 10am n went jogging ._. didnt managed to complete 12 rounds as long time nv job so end up ran 10 rounds only ;o
After jogging went to buy some stuff in Wm and ate 2 sandwich for breakfast n lunch.
Slack for 1 hr++ then go swimming ;D sad didnt tan at all >.> butbut i mangaed swim about 15 laps?
Now at home resting -_- pulled one leg and arm muscle ._. *result of over execising* LOL

new things to do in life (:

2008-02-09T05:41:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year people !

This cny i had met a few interesting people and i learn quite a few stuff ^^

I decided to do some stuff during my holidays, so i will kind of busy ;p I will be going online less often but i still will blog often if i have 'free time'.

Lalala ;3

'nice' day?

2008-02-04T23:26:00.000+08:00

Its was a nice day to start and end off.

Morning, i wake up and rush to school for gym. But didn't have the mood to gym ~ Then went off for ADD meeting. After meeting, i noticed got so much things to do for today -_- And all last min ._. So went back to gym n grab my bag n set the one the worst mission i ever had.

First of all, went to queesway alone..... make plaque and trophies then quickly rush down to otram park alone to find a cheap psp and found a $230. Next went down to bugis alone and walked to sunshine plaza alone to make slash. Next walked from sunshine to Ps alone and take mrt alone to AMK.
At AMK, keep walking around to find shops. Next went back home. Next go IMM alone.

Summaries what i did for the whole entire day since 3pm. Short right? Cos there really nothing happened and i wasnt in the mood. I screwed up the whole entire day plan. Suppose to meet jj and bey, but didnt.... Want to buy clothes, but didnt.... Its was a really bad day. Hp died halfway, end up cant communicate with others. Earphone one side spoiled....

And worst of all, i still haven fully recover from the sad days i had in jan as i was super down and tat feeling was there again -__- so its was a very really really bad day. The whole entire day wish was that someone can pei me go whole entire thing. However, i don't think anyone will be crazy to follow me. What i just blog just now seem like very short, but i spent whole entire day walking n travelling. Didn't even had time for meals.

I think i a very weird person =.= i wan ppl to come with me, but i dun wan to disturb them too...
LOL weirdo>.> Ya, its me! I the one who make myself emo -_- stupid right?

Overall I was so lucky i managed to get it all done ;/Although bast said its not possible , n i at 1st i agreed its not possible.

Nvm its over.... I dun wish to remember this day anymore. It sucks that all i can say (:

Been wondering... am i too depend on frens? Am i thinking too much?
I think i been contradicting myself nowadays.... What i said is not what i meant and i always pushing myself to be sad or whatever~~

I dun wish to dwell into this anymore. It is only make things go worst.

Life is always unfair, but I believe I have the power to control it

Amazing night (:

2008-02-02T21:20:00.000+08:00

NITE CYCLING! hope to have more people to come at 1st but its kinda of last min planning so its ok ba. At first, it suppose to have 5 people (most of them said 5 ppl is really bad cos its old number ;o) then js last min come! >.> cos she only ger ._. so end up 4 people lor ~.~

Before meeting ryan, i was with bey at queens looking around >.> then meet ryan at 7.45 at kallang then we took bus to east coast (: when we renting bike, merv came with 6 jajabees ;3

So 3 of went to mac to eat our dinner then jinyong came ;O then eat bao le we set off at 9.30 ^^ we really took our time lor as the night was very very young ;p Hehe i wun explain too much of the nite cycling cos most of time is cycle cycle but we rest quite alot ^^ In the end, we managed to find och (: but there was 2 building, one at the top other at the lower part of hill. At 1st we tot the bottom one is och as ryan said hospital should be easily access, then the top one look quite 'modern' LOL! but the next morning ryan said the top was och .... Ryan was quite sad tat och was so easy found. My plan was to go more ulu place then hope can go pass och de but in the end we just cycle a road n managed to find it liao!

At 1st we cycled pass the och, but tot its kinda weird to be at the top then didnt really care then we contiuned on and saw a very old building. And i saw the street name o.o! Ya its the street name where och lies ;o but we didnt tot tat will be och cos we expect to more harder to go in de >.> then infront got 1 black road n we went down.... and its dead end nothing much there.

Actually since i saw the top white building on top, i already start feeling weird and hair start to stand liao. Then later saw the other building, its was even more scary LOL! We stopped infront of tat old building n dicuss which building is the real och. Then i saw a road going up and its was completely dark n its up hill somemore. And ltr we go back, we saw the building at top, the stairs was cut off too. I got feeling that is och but me n merv keep saying tat bulding too modern le la ;xLOL so end up we move away from the street >.> TOO scary to stay there too long ;/

We end resting in changi village ;o OM the meals there cmi cmi cmi! lousy! Then we watched some super funnie n cmi wrestling show ;O! REALLY CMI!! can tell they faking it lor >.> n the ladies .... OM one woman show! LOLOL!! then we changi village we saw 3 gers at the same platform like waiting for people. Actually we saw them at diff time la... all of them said is the 'ren yao' but they dun looked like one to me ;o We went cycled back to ecp then rest at the 1st hut we saw in ECP . Then ltr we went to bedok jetty to see sunrise (: Its was really fun cos me , ryan n merv talked lot of stuff n crap too. I said when the sun come up, my legs will be heal ;X LOL then we keep taking pics ^^

Overall, its waas really get experienced to cycling with them ;D we shall do it again ok? HAAH i really lazy to continue blogging nite cycling see when i happy then add on ;x

Dead tired

2008-02-01T20:35:00.000+08:00

LOL i want to sleep soon but i dunno why i here -_-? Been crazy for last 24hrs! Cycling for whole entire night and sleep for almost 1hour on cold stone bed!?!? LOL!!! then go sch got meeting n blah >.> I SHALL POST SOON, TOO LAZY TO THINK!

4 Hours more and there go year 1 (:

2008-01-30T06:53:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 6.20am due to urgent call >.> First thing i saw when i walked pass the kitchen... MARIGOLD MILK!! -_- too bad its for my younger sis only, i bet its confirm keep in some place where i not suppose to touch it ;o Then breakfast suppose to be cheesecake de... In the end, decided to eat some weird bread then the cake lor. Early morning, both of them start to kp non-stop liao sia cos of one cheesecake. She wan cut the cheesecake with her own hands and keep half of them(i think ;x) for my sis ba. So fastest way to settle this is that i eat other stuff can liao (:

I just noticed that recently i had been complaining lot of my family stuff.

Actually, i could not sleep ;o Usually most of the time, i will KO in my bed de but this time dunno y -_- Most likely i was thinking of the past ba .... Hehe i wun go so much into it ba (:

Anway 2 more hours to my paper ad 4 hours to my FREEDOM!
Pray everyone will do well for this paper!

Few hours more to last paper (:

2008-01-30T01:55:00.000+08:00

Didn't touch much on WCD so aiming a pass will do ;D Wun fail de la ;x Slack too much liao because all my mind i think is hoilday hoilday hoildy ;p ahhh LAZY TO POST

Haha decide le!

2008-01-28T02:07:00.000+08:00

My house is hopeless!!! I GOING TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!
Dunno how they wash my clothes lor!! ppl shirt shrink! MINE!? EXPAND???
then some now the jeans n clothes stink until cannot stink lor -_-

FOOD!? Breakfast hor i will planning to buy my own =) Cant depend on them liao lor! whole day hide bread and cake for younger sis -_- then end up small bits n pieces of bread! rather go down get a hot waffle much nicer then wat they give me! Dinner -_- When i start working, i most likely dun wan eat at home. I rather go justin house cook ;xLOLOL

Shampoo n soap!! -_- always dun have! BAKA!!! even have stink lor ! the bottle like dunno how many months nv change and the liquid got detergent smell >.>! RAWR!

Can't believe i living like tat for so long ._. all thanks from the egg thing, it trigger all these!
I should seriously do something about it lor -_-

Good night and bye to my old self (:

2008-01-27T14:43:00.000+08:00

Ever since talking to karthis how to continue his study, we talked many interesting life!

LAAA HOILDAY COMING!!! YESYES!

Yesterday night was busy thinking about going to work or extreme makeover >.>

Karthis got a job for me ;O! $7/hr!!! 9-6!!! *DROOL* that = $56 per day O.O!!!!!!!
MON-FRI ONLY! SO ITS = $280 PER WEEK ;3!!!!!! HAHAHAHHAHAA SHIOK!!
butbut my makeover!!! -_- sialat need plan how to do both!! MY SEXY N HOT BODY ;3~!

MY AIM:

CHANGE MYSELF INSIDE AND OUTSIDE! again =)

Yesterday night was totally crazy ._. Dunno when the last time i had my msn bee spam like siao ;D but its fun!! HAHAHAHAHA!! CRAPPING NON-STOP!! ~~ i LOVE MY NEW DUCK!!! THANKS!!

But end up i didnt study at all -_- I GONA DIE REAL BAD!! LOL

actually DBMS not hard leh ;x I READ PPT and do pract hor, its really easy and understandable-_- JUST HOPE THE PAPER WILL BE AS EASY AS I THINK ;X

JIALAT! justin asked me wan go out anot cos they buying shoe!! MY SHOE!! ARHHH I AWN OSO!! should i go out anot!?????!?!?!?~~~~

Hoilady Hoilday~!!

2008-01-24T15:11:00.000+08:00

STARDUST JUST TOO GOOD ;3 watch 2 times in a row!! LOLLLL

hmm when watching halfway notice the main actress look very abit like someone ;p
nvm maybe thinking too much~.~

at last i got some good sleep after learning how adapt the noisy environment which at 8am the construction start to *BOM BOM BOM * -_-

Hoping to have something to eat during breakfast de..... End up eat a 2 days old cake WHICH IS SPOILED!! taste sour ;O! yucks! there go my only breakfast and source of food left ):

I do many bo liao things today sia ... I spent 3 hours see maple stuff! 1h sword hero o.o OWNAGE LOL!! then see ppl flame Amano Tsukiko song lyrics ^^ Shocking!! Amano Tsukiko songs always so violent and eerie de but the song lyrics are very meaningful and sweet =)

Then chat on msn ;P LOL ji dan was talking how to eat myself. And from human sushi go to human sashimi!! NEW MENU LOLOLOL!!! then john and me was talking about the sun! weather FORECAST BOY!! LOLLL! anyway i think i got on potential partner for my hoilday le =)) then today found out something important!! JS HARDY GO DOWN PLAYGROUND!!! KELIAN DE XIAO 3 YEAR OLD!!!

NEW MISSION
bring her to playground and teach her how to play!
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END OF MISSION
LOLOL
and tat merv!! =( dunno where he go sia~! keep MIA

And justin went to collcet psp sia BIG FAT WHITE ;OOO!!

ok bored now, dun feel studying la! COS HOILDAY!!! LAA HOILDAY

Movies~ Blades of Glory =) wan to double click it ;/

Its hoilday mood!

2008-01-23T23:25:00.000+08:00

laaa i watched 2 movies today!! i wun blog anything about today paper cos i got owned badly ;p BUT I WILL PASS!!!! SEE ME PASSS!!! laaaa ok dun talk about sch!!

MOVIESSS!

BALL of fury:
ping pang pong! this movie kinda different from wat i expected.... but its fun and wild!! LOL

STARDUST!

people!! WATCH THIS!! good good! although bgm was lound and voice was soft which was super fan la ._. Good movie!! ROMANCE ROMANCE ROMANCE!! WOO ROMANCE AND COMDEY WOOO! laaaaa very interesting sia. I wun say much but i like the part when she explained about love! AHHH SO ROMANTIC >.< CANT TAKE IT CANT TAKE IT! dream gf!! *drool*

LOLOL I SCREWED UP MY NETF LIAO!! BUT I WILL PASS !!!

2008-01-23T00:11:00.000+08:00

laaaaa laaaaa wondering wat the hell am i doing for today sia -_- slp and movie! LOL i think i crazy sia!! ltr netf LOLOL! i believe i will pass de =) *too overconfidence* ANYWAY wat the problem with the past year paper!! the ppt not even helping me sia! all answers found in book._. if ltr paper like past year hor... LOLOLOLOLOLOL i dead =) now the ppt ar..... rmb less then 10% of the notes so it good game ;/

nvm its too late to regert. I expected this will happen, so wat to do? CHANGE! i getting super super lazy! LAZY TO EXECISE, LAZY TO GO OUT, LAZY TO STUDY!! bad habits!!! i must clear them sia or else i going ruin my own life !!!

Hmmm i wondering am i too positive? now i remembered one day, kenny seah said about being positive and how it will benefits you. I totally agree with him =D Also its my 1st time hearing from someone in my life saying that he benefits a lot by being positive =) Nvm ._. i cant really force ppl to think same way as i do. Maybe that me! Being positive is good actually. Problems are just small, it is only how people see it.

NETF HERE I COME! HAHAHA =3 KILLL! *YUMMY*

Reflection!!

2008-01-18T00:25:00.000+08:00

Today was quite interesting day for me =) Actually suppose to meet vian n bing at bbdc at 10.20 or sometime around there ba, but i overslept -_- alarm since 8pm rang till 9.30 then stopped liao ;O! i need to do something about this bad habit of mine soon!!!

I at 1st tot got lot of bread for me cos ytd nite my papa bought lot of breads for the family de, but end up only left 1 hot bun -_- nvm~ At first tot wan study at home, but it too noisy at home so went to sch find ryan n celeste ;D

Reached school around 1+? n MERV WAS THERE!!!!OM!!! wanted to study de butbut WAS WATCHNIG SHOW with merv most of time ;x LOL!! NODAME!!! woooooo laalaaa

I leave around 5+ to find meet justin n karthis for dinner ;D ohohoh shopping at nutc!!! cooking at justin house!! FUNFUN!! marconi CHEESE! PASTA!!! yesyes! at last i got chance to cook again!!! actually most of the work is justin, i just help out ;x NVM BUT I STILL INVOLVED!! SO = I GOT COOKED!!! laalaaa i shall upload pics soon =)) THEN WE WATCH BLEACH !! got one cute ant hollow very funny !! THEN NODAME!!! LOL!! GYABOOOOO!!!! hope hoilday will do more of these stuff ^^!

Then on the way home, i didnt take 187 home. Suddenly, i just feel like walking back home =) I hate tat stupid dark school! always stared at it super scary la -.- nvm dun care tat sch anymore~ I did some reflection while walking =) I should not expect or wait people to call or ask me out. I should keep asking them out =) I should not wait for ppl talk to me. I must talk to them 1st! I should not wait people to play with me! i will play with them 1st!! OHOHOH even how hard or they reject me. I will still do it!! laaaa SO HOILDAY!! it time to get wild n hot~~~ laaa! BUT EXAM!! i shall kill exam!! HAHAHAHHA!

disappearing! HIBERNATION!

2008-01-15T20:49:00.001+08:00

I super lazy to blog now or can say i should not blog now cos i running out of time!! Exam next week and haven really begin revision -_- Anyway ytd nite was crazy! me and karthis had VEG WAR!! LOL! i shall talk more about it next time. Then crapping with yr about some butt thing ;x OK i will be hibernating myself once again! I gona try better hibernation method!! I wun be on msn often so anything just call 1800-112-98579507 =)

The veg family o.o!?

2008-01-14T11:48:00.000+08:00

TODAY MORNING! I SUDDENLY BECOME VEG CRAZE LOOL

I shall be nice today =) CUCUMBER U ARE HOT! LOL!!!

i shall forgive u for kick n poking my head ;p cos its ur nature to poke anyone with ur cucumber ;xx REMEMBER ITS PAIN!! we should find a day to make u a cucumber blog!! LOL

Laaa =)

2008-01-14T10:35:00.000+08:00

Lazy to blog for the last few days and the weekend i was not even at home ;p

i shall start from last thursday =)

Thursday~

There was no ISE so i just went for dbms =) In the practical lesson, it was really fun playing with yong rong and merv ;D! NEWSPAPER DRAWING!!! Its been long time since i had this fun in class liao.... Just hope it will be more fun in the future ba

After lesson, I stayed in the lab n do my CRS article then walked to karthis house to meet justin n karthis. Jialat i cant really rmb wat happened in karthis house ._. nvm~ So 3 of us set off to clementi and meet keith n his gf!! Its was justin n karthis 1st time seeing keith gf =) Then after dinner, we went play pool!
LOLOL thursday pool was totally crazy n fun! cos jj came ltr then we had 2 DS!! end up me n justin almost whole time there playing mario kart and the wat rabbits! LOL we 2 spin the ds until our arm buay tahan ._.!! However, keith and his gf left early ;/ then we around 10.50 then left!! NOW I RMB BEY NV FIND US!! *i shall forgive him since he got projects =)* laaa b4 going back home we went to mac eat MCFURY!!! now i know mcfury is nice!! too bad there is no milkshake =(

At home, i wanted to do CRS de .... BUT I WAS BUSY CRAPPING WITH PEOPLE LOL!! Was playing with celeste and ryan with hot RYAN KISS! ~.~ hmm let me think i tink i got talk to some people too ._. oh ya i rmb now jj and justin we talked about maple till 4pm LOL! end up doing one article only ;p~

Friday
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hmm let me think wat happened on fri 1st ._. oh ya ! FRI OHH MY !!! I FORGOT TO GO REG MY CAR TOADY!!!!!!!!! I ltr continue blogging -_- its taking me forever to type this finish LOL
I try to finish it now!! Meet justin n jj at bb aronud 11.30 and eat subway for lunch ;D then we went to bus interchange to take 945? cant rmb bus number sia. We saw one batch of sec students walking towards us, then justin asked me wat that sch is. I told him is hui min sch, Ysof ishark?? LOL I DUNNO HOW TO SPELL ;X then we at waiting for the bus then we saw WEIMING AND HUI MIN LOL!!!! when hui min saw us, she got stunned sia LOL!! Its was nice to see them, after all it been months since we last saw them ;/ Wanted to meet js at bukit gombak mrt at 12.30 BUT 12.40 then reach bbdc ._. LOL paiseh ;p then ..... NO TIME FOR NOW I GO BATH N GET READY TO GO SCH 1ST!! I SHALL CONTINUE LTR LOL!!

Totally Drained

2008-01-09T22:21:00.000+08:00

Need to re-do CRS articles again, but i just too tired to do it now ;/ really dun have the mood and energy to do it today. Today actually wanted to change things for better, but its was still the same ._. Dun feel blogging anymore for today, i too unstable now. I going to sleep before i started to be even more unstable =)

2008-01-09T02:38:00.000+08:00

Its not i want to be sad or emo or watever u all called tat. Its just a feeling that i wan to try my very best to do something or help people, but they wun let you. And how my mood go by is depend on frens. I too dependent on frens until i cannot be alone. So now whenever i alone, my mind start thinking of things which make me sad.

To me all frens = important frens. No matter you are from my sec sch, poly or watever place. I want to know that all of you all are dearest to me =) I dun wan to lose a fren anymore. I already lost so many important people in my life and i dun wan to lose anyone. I know that i giving to many people the impression "I am very busy, pls do not talk to me" but actually its true i busy but sometime i do wish to talk but i know it irriating to talk someone who is not replying nicely at all.

Overall, having been through this period, it has been very important lesson and feeling i had learn and gotten in life. Its was the 1st time i was so sad that become so unstable that i could even cry for nights. So from now onwards i will keep trying my best to cheer everyone up no matter how much they prevent me from doing it. I will try my best to go out more often with them. I will try my best to do help them. I will try to talk more to everyone, I will.. I will....

No matter how hard is it, i must keep trying! Since i lost almost everything so all i go to do now is rebuild it again. Although times when it get sad or bad, i just have to keep going on =) So to all my important frens out there! Please rememeber sam is there for u even sometime i very noisy, lame, irriating, or watever. I also changing but i will be going change for the better!!